My out-of-body experience - in the mirror! LOL :)

My Soul Note to 'Me': You Are Not What You See In the Mirror

Not long ago, I had a "Soul Witnessing" moment. It was one of those days when my overweight body felt excessively big. The weather was killing me with its dry summer heat and every cell in my body felt like it was burning up.  On days like this, it is easy to change mood tracks from pleasant to extremely unpleasant in seconds.

Over the years I have put on a good amount of weight. I am 60 years young. Though everything seems to be changing, there is also the slow metabolism thing that can become frustrating. Most days I can handle the changes, but some days they get to me. That day was one such day where I felt like I had an out-of-body experience - in the mirror!!!

Standing in front of the mirror everything from head to toe seemed completely off and very unpleasant to my eyes. I began to feel bad - you know the kind of "bad" that feels depressed? Yeah, that kind. My mood started changing and I began to feel my self-esteem plummeting.

I stood there for sometime challenging that image to change. Of course, my rational mind knew that's not possible,  but my irrational mind rather irrationally began to express softer, kinder, compassionate feelings towards that soul I was seeing in the mirror. My mental frame seemed to shift.  As I kept up with the observation, "vulnerable" was the word that came to my mind to describe that person that was looking right back at me. "you poor thing." I thought.

My dark mood lightened. I actually began to feel compassion for the image that looked back at me. I looked at the face in the mirror and thought beneath all of that physicality, there appeared to be an innocence that was wanting to be exposed, to be seen. In my mind, I saw myself hugging the image and feeling so much love and while in that state of mental embrace, I began to talk to the person looking back at me. "Lavina, you are beautiful. You are God's Own. You are not meant to feel shame and sadness at the size and measurement of your body. Be YOU. Be Happy." 

I felt the expression of these feelings deep in my Soul more than I had ever felt before and I thought: "wow! this is new! This is the first time ever, I am actually appreciating my body, mind, and spirit, exactly where it is. I am not striving or expecting anything from it. I am pleased to observe that I am so happy at feeling so perfectly imperfect." 

In that soul-revealing moment, I knew this change in perspective was registering in my subconscious mind. All those affirmations regarding my age, weight, changes, etc. were finally taking root deep within. I knew something relevant, special and holy happened. It was a big gratitude moment.

Nature has a reason for being whatever season it is at any given moment. Each season brings up different aspects of our psyche revealing to us what a marvel Spirit and Matter can be for the purification of the mind. Co-creation can be a beautiful and mystifying experience when the whispers of the Soul are heard. She is the bridge between us, the human, and God, the Spirit.

Dearest Soul, I Love You. Thank You.

The physical body has its place too in the world. It serves a purpose and is here for a reason. Every person on this planet will have an opinion and a perspective on this idea. What is important, is not the general information. What is important, is that you commune with your Soul constantly. It is your Soul that will always be shining Her Light on your path. Know your Soul. Become friends with Her. She will take you right back to your Innocence.

Love, Peace & Everything In Between,

Lavina Olive Jain